Now I know this picture might make you think otherwise, but a better me is born. Becoming a father is the best thing that could ever happen to me. I've been saying that a Juan Johnson 3.0 is coming , and I have this thing about taking a long time to make decisions but sticking to them once they're made. This new me is about minding my own path. I guess I became a little caught up with all the hardships going on in my life. Brother in jail, my fiancee's father passing, my family's family passing. But, today, I realized it had reflected in my writing. Heck I even gained a little weight. Regardless though, I feel know that my mania is actually shifting into positive gear.
I guess on the inside I'm cold and heartless because so much stuff I pray for not to happen happens. The thing is the more I think about it, I can't help to wonder if that's what it really is. Why do I put on such a positive act ? I feel like its because of the people around me hurting me because of their situation that I feel as if I have no choice but to be a super motivational influence and not worry about things that are out of my control. I feel like this blog made completely no sense.