Sitting here a week after getting out of the hospital, I had to write about how good I feel. My recovery has been a wonderful journey filled with lots of pain, hardships, and confusion followed by blessing after blessing after blessing. I am happy because when I look around me , I see everything I wanted to happen happen. I've always to have the lifestyle that included waking up meditating, praying , yoga, getting my thoughts together, and having a career. Having bipolar made it hard for me to hold a job because of mood swings, anxiety and much more. After years of living in a dark cave, I prayed for a light to show me the way out. One tool was alcoholics anonymous. I'm not a drinker, but since that did trigger my last hospital stay, I figured why not revisit the past. I've come a long way , and I could have felt like I crashed and started all over. I am a server, a travelling artists, help out with NAMI, and a soon to be father. I find a way to manage exercise, eating very healthy, and still be able to handle my self care. I think what broke me recently is that I wanted to help so many people that I forgot to help myself. I realized that I can't rob anyone of their own life changes. I can just accept them as they've accepted me. I can only be patient as they have been with me. I can only stay positive. I have so many goals that I'm looking forward too. Lately I've had a lot of hardships , but GOD, GOD , GOD has been my everything. Regardless of a car wreck, getting pick pocketed for $900.00 , ending up in Green Oaks, I've managed to stay positive. It's just a reminder to me that I can handle this. No matter how bad it seems things are, they might not actually be.
AuthorI am Juan. I live with Bi-Polar and ADHD. I am in recovery and want the same for all my peers. Archives
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