I guess it would be logical to start off explaining what triggered all this. I don't want to let the world all my business, but I had an episode of mania and suicidal ideation. I called the police on myself actually. I did it out of fear of hurting someone. Lately, I've found it hard to be able to handle my fiance's mood swings. along that I've had to be the bread-winner since she has been out of work for quite some time. Obviously the career I have alongside becoming a dad for the first time. There's more, but you get the point. What can I say, I lost it.
I ended up in Green Oaks , and thank God because the cops ( MIND YOU I CALLED AND ASKED TO TALK TO THE CIT UNIT) wanted to take me to jail instead of the hospital. Due to my wonderful girlfriend, she explained my condition to the cops and they took me to where I needed to go. NOT JAIL! As I rode in the squad car I could hear the cops saying I was crazy. Some CIT unit huh ? Yeah , Texas needs more education and transformation still. OH I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT I am not a drinker at all and that night I drank a lot due to stress. On with the story.
The 1.5 day stay did me good. Unfortunately, they put me on extra medication :( , but it gave me time to reflect about the fact that I actually ended up in Green Oaks after more than 10 years. I THINK IT'S OK TO HAVE EPISODES NO MATTER HOW FAR IN RECOVERY YOU ARE. It's a realistic reminder that I have a illness that I can not control, and that I will always have to struggle with it. Like all lifes problems, it too shall pass.
In addition there was a woman who claimed to be military trained and said "one chop to the neck and you're dead" repeatedly to one of the techs because he wouldn't give her a toothbrush the minute she demanded. He was trying to help another person out with some sheets at the time, and he kindly told her he would help her in just a second.
On top of that it didn't help when someone in the room said " B(*&^ you aint gon do ^&(&*^ you scary , you aint gonna fight nobody. I'll pimp the (*&^(&^ out of you acting like you tough. I'll put a (*&^&^ in your mouth. " I have no idea why no one said anything to him. Mind you he said it twice and it was not in a low tone. Well she ended up swinging at the tech and they ended up putting her in silent confinement. She was never hit , and I was actually impressed with the way the tech blocked her punches but did not hit her.
Also I almost got into a fight with the guy saying he would pimp the for for trying to help him out when one of the other techs took his water bottle.
Other things were a guy who I believe was having delusions or psychotic symptoms because he was talking to whatever he thought was going on or was there. They gave him a therozine shot and he pretty much went to la la land.
I think it was good to me because it reminded me how far I have come in recovery, but I needed to see what the hospital was like again. It let me see how much has changed for the good and the better. For one, I think the way they handled us was better. I just didn't like how the techs and nurses wouldn't say things about everything just things that posed threats. I mean I did think it was uncalled for for that guy to say " I'll put a (*&^ in your mouth" out loud in front of all the woman.
Other than that, I had good food , they had a HD tv and we watched movies on FX.
I'm out and I'll be going to my Dr. tomorrow to follow up.
It was refreshing to see what areas could improve and what was better. I felt like a mystery shopper. There's still a lot of work to do. I especially confirmed it when I realized there was no Spanish translators at certain times of the day and some of the people there needed translation. Luckily , I was there. So with that being said, I have much more info and up to date knowledge to base my goals on and have a better compass. I would love to write more but my mania wants me to work on creative material. Thank you for those who listened to my rants.