Just went to the 1st Dr.s appointment since my hospital release. I have no idea what I would do without Melissa. My soulmate has never feared what may come with this illness. Since my hospital release I have not smoked any weed, and I even went back to AA. Not drinking is a easy task for me. With those 2 things done, I thought everything would flow back to the regular routine. No, not necessarily the case.
I couldn't see the doctor so I had to see a nurse , who told me to not take any wellbutren any more. Turns out that with all the positive stress, it's actually making me more manic. I had no idea , let along imagine they would try to change my medicine. They offered to take me off lamictal and on tegratol. First they tried depakote, which I confidently said hell no. Depakote made me gain a lot of weight. So now, I have to be another lab rat as I look at it. But , why be so skeptical. I've had bad experiences in the past, but why can't I focus on this actually helping me. It might just do that.
I see the Dr. Next week, so I'll be able to get back on adderol. I never imagined I'd be having to change meds, but I guess life changes for certain reasons. I look at my hospitalization like a blessing the more I look at it. I'm happy my girlfriend decided to get counseling. I'm happy I called the cops on myself. The more I look at it , the more I feel somewhat empowered to at least have some part in the decision. Wish me luck as I change meds hoping for the better. I was super happy on what I was already on. I just fear that they'll translate my mania wrong.
I couldn't see the doctor so I had to see a nurse , who told me to not take any wellbutren any more. Turns out that with all the positive stress, it's actually making me more manic. I had no idea , let along imagine they would try to change my medicine. They offered to take me off lamictal and on tegratol. First they tried depakote, which I confidently said hell no. Depakote made me gain a lot of weight. So now, I have to be another lab rat as I look at it. But , why be so skeptical. I've had bad experiences in the past, but why can't I focus on this actually helping me. It might just do that.
I see the Dr. Next week, so I'll be able to get back on adderol. I never imagined I'd be having to change meds, but I guess life changes for certain reasons. I look at my hospitalization like a blessing the more I look at it. I'm happy my girlfriend decided to get counseling. I'm happy I called the cops on myself. The more I look at it , the more I feel somewhat empowered to at least have some part in the decision. Wish me luck as I change meds hoping for the better. I was super happy on what I was already on. I just fear that they'll translate my mania wrong.